Slice of Emotions

Waves of Emotions

Rained of Emotions

Ruined by Emotions

Was A Bed Of Roses

Burst by Emotions

It Snowed

Love is so deeply a part of me, so far beyond definition and description. For you love is so elusive as you only halfheartedly seek it. You will know and understand love only if you engage in a very personal search of heart and mind and soul which leads to the very essence of your being.

Do you understand life? For life is love. I can't make you understand love. You alone must be willing to take the inward journey. I will repeatedly urge you to do so, for nothing can take the place of that understanding.

It Rained

You think you already know what love is, when in fact you don't.

Sometime during our lives the majority of us will believe we have found true love, even though we have not. Many of us will go to our graves believing we have loved, when we never loved at all.

It Shined

It is very easy to stop short of understanding love. The idea of pure, real love, is so alien to our experiences, so foreign to the world we live in, we subconsciously, and even consciously, reject it as a non-existent fantasy. Yet it does exist. Because we seldom, if ever, witness such love does not mean it is less than real. Because the experiences of our past and the realities of our daily existence attack love does not mean it is a fantasy. Our doubts and fears, desires and temptations, weaknesses and longing to "live", cannot change the fact that pure, true, real, love exists, and that people can love one another.

Compassionate Heart

Would I be too embarrassed to let someone wipe my behind when I am too old to do it? When I took care of Norbert, I would do anything for him for I loved him. So, would there be anyone out there, who would truly love me enough to take care of me when I am old and incapable to take care of myself anymore?

I remember how Norbert had stayed positive – all the way. He surrendered to his disease and allowed me to take care of him and do most of the personal and basic things with the exception of breathing and swallowing his food.

When I think again, he had always been a very independent person, how did he fight all this? He told me, as first he was ashamed of many things that he could no longer do, like run, sit of floor and pray. He forgot what culture wanted out of him. He had ignored culture much of his life, anyway and decided not to be ashamed and what was the big deal anyway?

He began to enjoy his dependency. He enjoyed being manicured and pedicured. He loves when I rubbed lotion all over his body and massaged his legs. He reveled in it. He usually closed his eyes and soaked it up. And it felt very familiar to him he says, like going back to being a child again. Someone to bathe you and kiss you and be with you all the time. I tend to agree with him. We all have that ‘child’ thing in all of us and should now remember how to enjoy it.

I love to be a ‘mother’ to him. I used to hold him, rock him, stroke his head to sleep. We all yearn in some ways to return to those days when we were completely taken care of – unconditional love, unconditional attention. Most of us didn’t get enough.

Broken Heart - AC6

Bring peace to my mind

Love to my heart

And joy to my soul

- And keep it there!!!

Desperate Heart - AC5

I just want this feeling in me to go away!!! I want to feel like my life has meaning and somebody out there cares and could someday love me. ME!!! for who I AM!! Not because I changed into something they could love.

Someone out there, please look pass this smile and see how hurt and hold me till it goes away......

Aching Heart - AC4

The moment of joy spent under the willow

The tear of the eyes that wets my pillow

Sometimes pain and sometimes pleasure

When given by friends, both are a treasure...

Empty Heart - AC4(1)

All I know is that I fell in love with him and for that, I will have to pay with months of sleepless nights, loss of focus, losing weight, crying and fantasizing about him.

Passionate Heart - AC3

He was happy because he was getting what he needed from the relationship, I was unhappy because it meant me being deprived of what I needed, and me not being myself. The same thing happened when he gave me what I needed. If our needs weren't so diametrically opposed and immensely important, it wouldn't have been a big threat to our relationship and our individual happiness.

If I give a little to compromise, I loose a lot of happiness and sanity. I love you very much and I want you to be happy. I now have the freedom to find someone that I don't have to change in order to get my most important emotional needs met. I think in a relationship, these are the most important needs to be met. I don't think our relationship should be this hard this soon.

It was bad timing. It was the long distance. It was difficult. I wish we only fell in love with the people we are compatible with.

Lonely Heart - AC2

I have spent a lot of time thinking about us. Although I really care about you, I think we should move on.

I know it is hard for me, but I really hope you will find the love you deserve.

Longing Heart - AC1

You will find someone amazing and I truly wish you all the happiness in the world.

Queen of Hearts

Dear Sayang Manzaini

I don't remember if I have given this painting a title, but now I want to call it "Queen of Hearts" - especially dedicated to you.

A woman who is full of everything (from her heart). You are the someone whom I could trust and feel comfortable talking to. You listened to everything, understood my happiness and my pain, cry and laugh with me. You are the right one for ME.

Emotions Revealed

This painting was given to Korea. I have forgotten the actual title of the painting which was written behind the canvas. Painted in January 2011.

Colours Of My Heart

Reason, Season or Lifetime????

by Sayang Manzaini March 28, 2011 at 8.28 am

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a life time. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be...

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a season, because your turn has come to share, grow and learn. They bring you experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

A lifetime relationship teaches you life time lesson, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationship and ares of your life.

Not everyone who comes into your life is supposed to stay there. Sometimes you're just a way station. Love them while they are there, love them when they move on, and trust that we all find our true home eventually.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime