Aching Heart - AC4

The moment of joy spent under the willow

The tear of the eyes that wets my pillow

Sometimes pain and sometimes pleasure

When given by friends, both are a treasure...

Empty Heart - AC4(1)

All I know is that I fell in love with him and for that, I will have to pay with months of sleepless nights, loss of focus, losing weight, crying and fantasizing about him.

Passionate Heart - AC3

He was happy because he was getting what he needed from the relationship, I was unhappy because it meant me being deprived of what I needed, and me not being myself. The same thing happened when he gave me what I needed. If our needs weren't so diametrically opposed and immensely important, it wouldn't have been a big threat to our relationship and our individual happiness.

If I give a little to compromise, I loose a lot of happiness and sanity. I love you very much and I want you to be happy. I now have the freedom to find someone that I don't have to change in order to get my most important emotional needs met. I think in a relationship, these are the most important needs to be met. I don't think our relationship should be this hard this soon.

It was bad timing. It was the long distance. It was difficult. I wish we only fell in love with the people we are compatible with.

Lonely Heart - AC2

I have spent a lot of time thinking about us. Although I really care about you, I think we should move on.

I know it is hard for me, but I really hope you will find the love you deserve.

Longing Heart - AC1

You will find someone amazing and I truly wish you all the happiness in the world.

Move On

Sometimes, you handle certain things easily when others find it very difficult. When it comes to matters of the heart, I always find it very hard to handle. I guess, if things are just not working in whatever you are doing, or if makes your heart aches, I think it is time to move on.

Summer Garden

Conscious Thoughts, Speech and Action

Every morning we say to ourselves, "I'm not going to sin today", and we mean it. Most often we are praying for forgiveness. Do we ever make it through the day without sinning? We tell ourselves we are going to be conscious of our actions, yet the next morning we start over again the same way.

As for me, I don't know which usually lets me down first, a sinful thought or a sharp tongue that often seems to work independent from the mind. I feel ashamed because I let my myself down again, but God forgives me and loves me anyway.

We all make resolutions close to new year and fail to keep it within a few days. Some of us plan to diet, made an attempt and lose weight only to put it right back on again. We are ashamed of what we do, yet we continue doing it, why? Are we hypocrites, or do we have demons that we are unable to exorcize?

Have you ever promise to be somewhere and not make it? Something comes up and you have to make a choice. Sometime you let people down by those choices. People that depend on you. Sure you are sorry but that does little to comfort others. Trust is weakened or sometimes completely gone. It feels bad to let someone down, especially those you love most.

Did you ever forget a birthday? Did you ever forget to do an errand? You may have put it off untill it was too late. You could have done it but chose to wait for one reason or another. Have you ever given your word and then backed out, sometimes at the last minute?

All these make us feel bad. We let ourselves and others down. From today onwards, let's try to do everything from every tiny thoughts, speech and action, consciously.