Thursday, August 26, 2010
I Am Off - Looking For Romance
I have always been a sucker for being a little romantic. Call me old fashion and lame. Finding real love seems to be the question and desire for mankind since the beginning of time. My favourite quote is “To love and be loved is the greatest happiness of existence”. Humans have the ability to love, and to be loved. I have these traits, yet I am struggling to find true love.
Andrea and Maria went out to get more DVDs. They brought back “love stories”. Since like I said, I am a sucker for romance, I sat and watched two romantic movies in a day. I said to myself, “it can happen....” Movies sometimes trick my mind on what love should be. It's not that there aren't truly romantic and magical moments but what I see in the movies today, I truly want to experience love - again. You know, Hollywood has a way to make it seem so simple. It's not at all. It's just most of the time movies don't always focus on the pain you truly feel when you feel this way about a person. Or when they do focus on the pain, it still seems to always be easy. When there is love, there will always be pain too. Some people can't deal with the pain and run from it. Sometimes you have to fight for true love. Sometimes you have to be patient and let it come to you. You can't change a person's heart, all you can do is open their eyes. You've never loved someone, if you've never felt the pain.
In my experience, where I've had quite a taste of it, love isn't just a wonderful feeling. It's an extremely terrifying, thrilling, and remarkable feeling all in one. It's something I will never forget and never seem to shake. There's no time solution with real love. Once I feel it, it doesn't disappear. I can be with a person for many years, and it feels just as glorified. I am aware that when I enter down a road of finding real love, it's a very heavy emotion. If I don't treat it right, it can tear me apart. I will learn to handle the emotion properly, it will be the greatest thing that will ever happen to me. Anything that didn't feel possible, is possible now.....